>>3089626This exact doujin is easily one of the GOAT:s for me, at least if we talk about stuff discovered as an adult. That exact thing you said about shame staying in the characters is super hot, even though it tends to have a bit too fixed dark undertone in most/some of the stuff, and this takes a bit way from some of the rougher/cornier language too(that I would like more) im a "bi" sub male and the shame ingrained with some of my needs and tendencies is and has been key to accessin some of my deeper emotional/psychic wellbeing, and this particular manga was one of both mine and my ex gf's(whom with we explored and healed great many things - i am much less "ashamed" of my sexuality nowadays, but that feeling is very important and useful for me to be able to show vulnerability and at least she found it very hot as the shame kinda lets me pass as straight, invest in girls but also super desperate for their approval and also forgiveness for responding physically and mentally so eagerly to also men, also it lets some otherwise straight men and lesbian women project some similarly discreet things on me)
Also, after that manga i started to slowly warm up to the idea/thought of stocky/fat/overweight men too, eventuslly developing into admiration of one homophobic and conservative friend after my ex started joking about finding it hot that so horrible sounding man always wanted me to be his "wingman" or fuck a girl together, because girls like me and he gives quite misogynist pervert vibes at times. She loved the idea of me trying to appear manly when my friend unleashes his lust and will to degrade and conquer some poor girl. In fact, later on she made it quite common thing to fantasize and masturbate about him and tease me about it, claiming that his loathing, rage and frustration are perfect for my shame, submissiveness and people pleasing tendencies especially, creating a perfect narrative for a secret, dirty, "just sex no homo" outlet
