>>3782838>>3782882that's one of the remarkable things about life. it's never so bad it can't get worse...
i don't really know what to tell you, but i think that when we are dealing with our own bullshit, we sometimes forget other people are doing the same. nobody can care about other peoples problems indefinitely. we are all just trying to cope and get by somehow. i don't think you are doing anything wrong, but your coping mechanisms seem to be on the extreme side of the spectrum and that may be hard for people around you to deal with, especially of they care for you. honestly, i wish i could offer something more substanstial or help you in a meaningful way, but i don't know what i could do or how.