It's too long ago now to know what the first thing was. I know I was enamoured, and I made stupid little connections between his likeness and other things I was into. I wasn't very self aware about that, I was just excited. There was this culmination of an older guy, a suit, the twelve deities theme, acting so cheery but hiding something bigger, and the colours. I'd always had a thing about purple and turquoise, and that they both complement each other, but also both go well with a rich brown. I used to have characters I drew as a kid who always had those colours in some combination. So here's this guy with amethyst eyes, chocolate hair, and everything. Which is so weird and contradictory to my other types I know, but he's like a bundle of good things that is just right.
I've answered the biggest fear question so so many times I bet some of you can already recite it. He's afraid of hurting people, he's afraid of being responsible for the pain of others. He lost someone in life and it broke him, he lost his mind trying to undo whatever led to that. Once all hope of reversing it left his grasp he was aware other people might see him as the monster he was accused of being. The thing capable of destroying lives. Since then he's always kept up a cheery persona and held everyone a few metaphorical feet back from taking a good look at him. Now and then the mask slips and he gets trapped again in the memory of what he lost, and I'm happy to say contrary to his fears nobody has rejected him because of that. They only wished he wouldn't suffer.
I have no experience with dates but I'd like to walk and chatter in woodlands, country footpaths, landscaped gardens. His fond memories of gardens from before the tragedy come up a few times, so I'd like him to have recent ones too.>>3798486
Not sure if you're the same anon from /a/ who said this, but thank you. For some reason it's hard to know what to say in reply even though I've said the same thing to other people.