>>13689066Overall I'd consider myself far from being a trainwreck, just maybe too optimistic. I was on track to being self sustaining and living comfortably prior to COVID.
I remember a brief time when "lesbians" in porn were hot, but now I prefer just girls solo
One mother is biological, the other adopted (been together about 37 years). The father is/was an anonymous sperm donor. No name or pictures of papa, but there's a sheet of info on the guy about his birthplace, race, height, (some random info like favorite movie) etc., and that of his parents. No clue where he currently resides - never met him and never will. No disdain or feelings of abandonment he is a stranger to me, even so, I hope he's fine wherever he is.
yes, I love my mothers, but I've had the feeling that there are lessons a man could have taught me that my mothers did not, hence my post.
>>13689339Not until puberty hit I would say. I never peed standing up before I was 12 or so, even now I only go standing at public restrooms. Father figures (if you could call them that) initially came in the form of 80s/90s action heroes and movies stars (namely bruce willis and arnie, later john wayne) but I always figured that was common for boys. As a teen I thought reading works of great men (*then*, Nietzsche, Aristotle, Voltaire) would help shine light on ways a man could act, among other things. It kind of helped... started because I was an edgy atheist, but thankfully didn't end that way.
My grandfather (my adopted mother's father) and an old professor/music instructor have been the closest things to a father figure in my life even though that isn't what I seek them out for.
Thank you for being my shrink(?) I think having parents who have been together for 37 years, but only married for ~4 years gave me the idea marriage (dont confuse with monogamy) is kind of silly.
tl;dr anon is not a nut job despite gay parents and unintentionally tried to find, but was not desperate, for a male role model
