>>5139484"Thanks" can be used differently depending on the situation, I understand it can be hard to know when to say or write it. This is not an exhaustive list but usually, you can use it when someone gives you an information which helps you to resolve a problem or to understand a matter you did not understand before. Or simply when they empathize with what you feel or compliments (but these ones might be hard for you to understand when it happens, I guess). Or even when someone takes time to be with you. It is meant to be used when you feel 'grateful'. You used it correctly here if you think I 'helped' you. If I hurt you then no.
I can only imagine your frustration but I think I am able to feel how distressing and exhausting it is.
The way you 'shared' what you have read and the Youtube video link is a bit "unnatural" but I still find it interesting. It helps me understand better (I think) how you feel. I have read testimonies of people who, like you, learnt how to act to different situations by repeating what they saw others do.
When I said to do some researches earlier about Asperger Syndrome, it was for you to see if you recognize yourself in the symptoms you've discovered. Many people aren't aware of this kind of autism or simply think about it as an insult so, I thought it could help you understand better why it is so hard for you to understand words and concepts others seems to know "instinctively".
I also suggested to see a real doctor because they might be able to help you with that. If you live in America it might costs you a lot of money and I don't know if you have enough. But try to see a real doctor and talk to them about how you think you've been undetected as an Asperger. They *should* normally guide you to persons who are well informed on that subject. I am not a professional so I might be wrong when I say you may have autism.
What the other anon has said is more or less true. Especially the first paragraph.
