>>106871941I've been reading it and its very interesting.
On the one hand the nature of the work does make her feel kinda fucked up, but she sort has a handle on it/coping mechanisms. She has a sense of self that's able to roll with this for the time being.
And her attitudes towards clients revolve around whether or not they let her just get on with with it by validating the attitudes towards it she's adopted. She thinks its a job, has its downsides, there are things about it that fuck with her emotionally but whether she's right or wrong she thinks its 'fine'. She certainly does seem to be doing well given that its a rough line of work.
When a client starts to look down on her or take pity on her, she hates that and tries to tear them down. She does this in different ways. There's one where a guy is like 'I can't see you anymore cause I like you and think this is cruel' she acts sad but says its his decision, hopes he comes back, but then she slams the door and starts laughing uproariously. It's just a hunch, but I suspect she wasn't laughing in real life, or if she was it was kind of forced and a path she deliberately went down to avoid the alternative. She wants to frame the man as comical and worthy of derision/contempt(which is fair enough) because he challenges the framework of beliefs that allow her to feel more of less ok about what she does. It prevents things from proceeding in the most minimally unpleasant way possible.
When a client just acts stoked to be with her, doesn't do anything aggressive, is courteous and above all doesn't act like its weird, she portrays him very favourably. He's the only client she portrays as a likeable guy, because he seems to agree with her preferred perspective on what she's doing.
Also I suspect this is the same brothel from that Louis Theroux documentary so if you're interested in what these girls think you should watch that.
