>be me 21 yo
>barely passed highschool
>decide to try not to be a brainlet and get into university
>Fail at that
>Try to learn coding
>Fail at that
>Try reading books
>Realize I can never remember what I read or actually understand some of the shit sometimes
>try to write as a hobby
>Realize I'm fucking terrible (unironically)
>decide to start mapping out my knowledge
>Realize I'm at a 9th grade level in maths and English

I regularly get 128 on those IQ things so I reckon I'm not that retarded but seriously I'm losing hope here. Can anyone teach me how to learn properly? I hate feeling like a retard (because I am)