>>6017331It was an exaggeration. There are moments where I was glued to the desk carefully applying lines and details smiling with every stroke.
>why even draw at this point?Because I want to draw someone I love dearly.
I have many scenarios inside my head of how I want to portray her. I have done many sketches, thumbnails and crude drawings of them.
I always come short. The background looks too crude and weak. The proportions are off. The skin looks like rubber. Her face is fucked. The fingers seem like balloons. Everything looks wrong.
I still want to draw. I have dropped it a couple times only to come back to it.
I have gotten rid of my pencils and sheets only to buy them again.
I have zeroed the drives where I store my pitiable works and the programs I used to carve them out only to install everything again.
I really want to draw her. I want to fill boorus and archives with her beauty. I want to be known as that guy who draws her everyday. I want these dreams I have of her to be plastered on the canvas and show them to everyone else.
When I apply a little bit of blush to her cheeks it feels like my touch is making the blood rush to her face instead of just some red pixels appearing on the digital canvas.
I want to draw because I want to portray that person I love dearly with the beauty she deserves but fuck me sideways if only being able to draw crude insults can be frustrating.
>>6017326Drop that shit like its hot. Nuke your gaming accounts if need be.
>>6017304>We're all going to make it.>Just think that every hour you put into practicing drawing is a useful hour, every hour you put into gaming a waste.Thats the idea. I don't even enjoy vidya anymore. All I have been doing these past two weeks has been work, study, gym and sleep with some chores inbetween.
I will get better. I believe in myself.
