>>6014826As this art connoisseur has already said, all kinds of emotion based motivation, like inspiration or spite in your case, will make you dependant on it. You feel the emotion - you draw, you don't feel it - you won't do shit. And since you can't control what you feel, you will remain permabeg until the end of times. I am in no position to judge you, because I'm similar retard who up until recently drew only when 'felt like it', only when sudden hit of emotion made me to. Suffice to say, this way of living sucks. Now I practice discipline - sleeping schedule, better food, define amount of art per day. Will see how it goes in the long term, but i've been drawing, really drawing, quite a lot recently.
