>>4716911Dedicating myself to art was the biggest fuck up I have and ever will smear on my life history which is almost entirely made up of massive fuck ups. I thought this one was going to make me happy in the end, it was the biggest fuck up of all.
It was like starting a wonderful marriage and only after you made children and built a house on it, discover that she was cheating on you and laughing about it all along, that she never loved you, that you were worthless to her and literally everyone else was a better man to her.
That's how betrayed and devastated art made me feel. The only difference is that I would stop loving this woman, I will forever love art so I'll just keep getting cucked by it until I bleed out.
I have no idea how to quit and take my life back. There is not one more thankless, miserable activity I can imagine disgracing myself with.
