>>4707853>>4707874Long of the sort is that we got together when we were young. I had a terrible self image and she had baggage from childhood abuse and had just left a relationship that she had been cheated in.
This set up a situation where I was treated unfairly but it aligned with how I expected to be treated as the obvious lesser of the two. I also figured that if I gave her time and space she would become more comfortable and reasonable. That didn't really happen.
Fast forward a few years and we have a special needs child while she stays at home and I try get an I.T. degree. I fail to split my family, me and study time. By the time I told her that we needed to split she heard 'I'm starting to have some issues we need to work on. This was the first time I really voiced any of my issues with our relationship. Anyway after a bit there was threatens and 'attempt's' of suicide, taking my child back to america (I'm Australian and we live in Australia).
I end up cheating on her with an online trap. Never met the guy in person. She found out and turned her personal issues up to 11.
Anyway that pretty much went on for a couple years. I've given up now. She's had my passwords a year in to our relationship. My way of showing I wasn't doing anything shady. She still has her ex on her playstation and facebook. They comment on eachothers stuff every now and then. I go through an hour long shouting fit whenever she realises I follow someone on instagram that's either obviously female or a fairy. Even if their account is all about art or fashion. One check was in to larping and made a bunch of cool renaissance style outfits.
Honestly I'm just tired of being yelled at, I feel like everything I do is being watched. I don't help myself by continuing to watch porn, which she finds out about. She believes all my issues with her are to do with her appearance. I wont abandon my son. Just fuckin hell I don;'t hate her but I would be happier alone.
