I feel you to a certain extent.
Around 15 anime inspired me to learn how to draw, I tried for a while and eventually quit, I wasn't studying the fundies and adults were telling me artists make no money
As time went on I just graduated and worked a wagie job at Wal-Mart, thinking how I abandoned drawing and my time was going to waste. Early this year I decided to say fuck it, I don't need anime and I don't need video games, i need to build skill as an artist. So I've been drawing everday and studying, I'm making good progress but my dad gets drunk a lot and yells at me for what I'm trying to do. He makes me feel like a waste since I make pennies off of art online, and just wants me to find a min wage job or join the service. It feels bad trying to practice art in an isolated embodiment
I ask him if joining the service or working a low paying wage job is the only future I have and he doesn't have an answer. Of course he doesnt, he never had jobs that required talent or skill. He worked as a taxi driver or a delivery driver his whole life. I don't want that to be me. I want to try and make use of my youth to develop a skill I can be happy with. Even if I don't live off my art, I'll be able to make things for fun, and make cash from the comfort of my home.
If you're feeling unmotivated, you should try some anime that will move you. If that's not your stuff, then just consume whatever relates to your art. You can't keep going without reminding yourself why you love a certain thing in the art>>4237370
It'll take time and dedication to get good. Keep trying so that you one day do not look back and think "damn I wish I never quit. I could have been good now with the time I chose to waste instead"