>>3568328Not a whole lot to elaborate on. I've been mentored by an established commercial artist and he put me in contact with a company that wanted an illustrator. I had kind of a bad feeling about this from the start but I didn't want to be ungrateful so I took on this project. It's been a lot of stress ever since.
First of all I've had a lot of pretty major stuff not related to the project happen in the last few months. Not going to get into it but it's all very high-priority and life altering stuff so I had a lot to juggle to start with.
Then there's the fact that I'm still pretty inexperienced and am embarrassingly slow at drawing. (seriously I'm like a sloth) So I've got that to work through. Which I guess will all get better with experience but right now it's hell and I'm really beating myself up over it. I feel like I wasn't prepared for the pressure.
Then there's the project itself and the guy I'm working with. He's obviously really new at all this too, which I can't and don't really hold against him, but it's also making my job harder. I don't know what his vision for this is, and I've not been told much of anything about the characters, or any of the worldbuilding.
I've basically been drawing them with personalities that I've given them which he hasn't seemed to mind. He hasn't really communicated what he wants exactly and there's been parts where he's ourtright contradicted it. I feel a little bit like I'm not only doing the art but writing the whole thing except it has to be in the confines of someone else's prompt.
Rn I'm trying to find other ways to apply my skills as an artist and make money that isn't.... well, this.