Man I just don't fuckin' know. I've tried telling myself "eh, I'm bi I guess." But fapping to gay shit gives me the weakest orgasms ever, and I feel like garbage afterward. Not in a self-disgusted "eww, did I just do that?" way, but in a "fuck that was just... pathetic" kind of way.
I half wonder if I'm mistaking some other kind of erection (fear, stress etc.) for actual arousal, and I'm just jerking it because it's hard. Especially since I only seem turned on by traps when I'm ultra tired, and my brain isn't exactly functioning at 100%.
I wouldn't even care if I was bi, because I know I'd still enjoy the women I've always enjoyed, but every time I try to run with it, I end up disappointed in the entire experience.