Its strange, the lesbian I met both online and real life are usually really nice to me. Even though I am a fat ugly no nothing guy, I have nothing but respect for these women, and they are not ugly either.
However, I still don't like lesbian as a subject for my entertainment and I actively avoid things with lesbian in it. For some reason the subject just hits my insecurity harder then other form of relationships. I still enjoy a good romance, just not one with lesbian in it. I also find it hard to untangle lesbian and feminist lesbianism or political lesbian rhetoric that I encounter during middle part of my time in college. When there are lesbian, those insecurity tend to come up. I usually feels lonely only at the end of something, but when its lesbian I constantly needed to process it, its painful.
For a while I just felt happy to leave it to people who like it, and just go somewhere else. Although recently its getting into a lot of thing I like, and its becoming harder to avoid them. Especially when I make things on the internet, there will be randos that just pops up and go "oh, you draw two cute girls in a picture, now make them kisssssss" or "take [girl A that I draw] and make her and [girl C that I draw], and [make them do this and that lesbianish] things, pleeeeeesse." I resent it, I resent that I can't just avoid them now, but I don't really want to get into other people's things or tell them off unless they super annoying.