>>90839417Okay now this convo has gotten weird and uncomfy. I feel like you and this guy
>>90838874 are just legit sex perverts.
I've dated someone about half my age three times: 22, 24 and 31. I could probably still do it but even I feel weird about it now, I generally don't want to get some sweet girl tangled up in my life and make her best years all about some old guy she didn't know any better than to date.
Each time it wasn't because I was sex crazed for young girls. It was because of emotional immaturity. I never really grew out of being 17. Smoking weed, playing Playstation, skateboarding. My brain just remained frozen at that level of development I guess.
I couldn't relate to girls older than like 20, even by the age of 30 myself. They wanted this sophisticated social dance of guile and hidden meanings I couldn't keep up with. They wanted drama, to be chased, all this grown up shit I didn't know how to do.
With girls around the age of like 15-17 I could just hang out with them by the lake. We could smoke, we could skate, play videogames and listen to music. Life could be simple with them.
They liked me because I was mentally and emotionally on their level, but I had a bigger, manlier body than boys their age. I had a car and a license. I had experience that could help them figure out their lives and often I was the only constructive male influence, as two of them had abusive alcholic pricks for dads and another's dad was in prison.
But one by one they grew out of me. The fear is always that the young girl's heart will be broken by a grown man. But it was my heart that got broken.
They knew what was happening too and felt sorry for me. I hated knowing they felt sorry for me the most. I'm still friends with all of them though, sometimes we email and talk about the direction our lives have gone.
