You misinterpreted that. I do try and help people and I don't talk shit about others or point out flaws. I only talk shit about myself. I still try to help the people who say they hate me.
Just a couple weeks ago, someone who hadn't talked to me since she told me off months before needed me to save some photos stored only on her computer which was on the brink of death but due to a bunch of complications it took me literally four days to save those and I didn't sleep a single minute in case it'd be too late even though it completely fucked me over in a way I can't say here and it was even more difficult considering I had mono at the time.
Has she talked to me sense? Nope. She's insulted me in passing sure but she hasn't talked to me.
Does she hate me because I keep telling self-deprecating jokes that piss her off? Probably partly. But it's either I tell those jokes or I lay down in silence staring at the ceiling trying to hold back tears with a 50% success rate.
But please, insult me without knowing why I'm upset or anything about me other than I tend to be depressing.
And trust me, being lonely isn't the biggest problem in my life right now regardless. Very very far from it. It's just one that relates to the thread and character.