>>78023846>I don't see your point?I take anti-depressants, go to therapy, the whole shebangbang. Been in and out of doctors for 8+ years for mental issues. I'm getting better, but the time it's taking to get to a point where I don't relapse and become a suicidal mess is exhausting. I basically have no friends, hobbies, or life outside of going to work then going to therapy to feel good enough to get back to work.
I've been on straight Zoloft, Lexapro, Busparone, and assorted cocktails of medication. None of them seem to do much aside from treating symptoms such as insomnia, sweaty palms, shaking, some anxiety, etc. Most make me nauseous as fuck. I regularly vomit 3-4 days out of the week on waking up.
Last summer, I moved into a townhouse with a bunch of stoners. I wasn't a heavy smoker beforehand, but once I moved in... Oh boy.
I was in the best mental state of my life. As soon as I felt anxiety coming on, I'd smoke and it would dissipate. When I am sober, I am unable to control my thoughts or emotions (which is why I'm on medication). I have panic attacks, crying fits, extreme fear, etc. I know it's a part of my lifestyle and my career and I am taking steps to fix that.
However, weed removes all sense of doom that comes with anxiety/depression. I can actually control what I am thinking and feeling. I have had similar feelings while taking LSD and MDMA - both of which I would not use on a daily basis.
Stoner culture is retarded. Plenty of stoners are losers and will be losers their whole life. But weed does a whole lot of good for me and if I had to go back and do it all over again, I'd have started smoking as soon as I was in college. I would have performed so much better had I not been so fucking depressed and I might have actually gotten a job in my field.
