>>126296881Its an emotional thing too, just being able to sleep and forget everything. I've seen too much, heard too much and think about it too much to be at rest even if I can achieve the physical comfy. I will never feel safe or secure like I was as a child, go to sleep without pain, wake up and just lay there without pain or feelings or urgency. Maybe I am selfish and I don't deserve it or its something I shouldn't cry over as everyone has this problem but looking at cute pictures of people sleeping is as close as I can ever get.
