>>114784662being trans is a constant battle of appearances and fighting one's own body in vain. sexual dimorphism makes it very difficult to erase the evidence of maleness, and you will have to apply tons of makeup and artificiality to maintain the illusion. women just wake up women, every day, even without doing anything. you? you'll be in a performance any time you look at yourself in the mirror, take a photo, or go out in public.
its alot of effort that would be better focused on seeking mental help and becoming a happier, stronger person