>>112986617Because I was in a codependent relationship with a much older person online for eight years straight throughout my entire childhood and was groomed to be their perfect friend and eventual lover and I loved them unconditionally and did everything for them, even at my own expense, until one day they ghosted me and I was forced to question if I was ever a real person with my own unique, individual thoughts and wants and needs without her or if everything I thought I was "me" was just to serve her own interests, and I was too stupid and gullible because it happened so gradually starting at 11 years old that I didn't know any better and had such little self-esteem that I believed she loved me most.
Or, you know, maybe it was just a really good emotional scene and I recognized that, haha.
