>>111775777No, I don't think that was my case.
He was this incredibly attractive young man with a passion for just life in general, who lived his entire life resisting a toxic oppressive environment, especially from his loved ones, and he resisted it no matter what it cost him, and now that he was in this new world, I realized while we emotionally found each and provided a lot of what we were painfully missing from each other's life, if I tried repress him back from this part of his self expression, I would be doing harm.
I asked myself what was it about conventional relationship dynamics that I needed, thought about every sexual encounter I have ever had and how it contributed in part to my own self awareness, but had no impact on my romantic sphere, and realized I if I enforced exclusivity to someone who never had the chance to get out there, and was such an integral part of who he was, I was just denying someone something that I had for myself, which was a little bullshit.
So I did what I've always done in life. Let go of labels and conventions and just felt grateful for however much bounty of what I love that I get to have.
Which was a *lot*. I realized later I was down a bad path before I met him, and got back in touch with some fundamental parts of what it means to be alive in the world
