>>109419290I wish I had confidence that relations with women wouldn’t be so one-sided like it always seems to be. I’m already so starved for physical affection as is, and I’m paranoid of being hurt inside that I just feel like I can’t trust myself actually being in love with someone. I want to be in a relationship so badly, I want to be able to get into that and not feel so exposed financially and emotionally, safety and security in them seem so tenuous. I wonder if it’s maybe I don’t feel like I have worth, so someone telling me I do in any way feels like I’m being buttered up or something. I wish I could trust falling in love once again.
Being with girls is just so completing, but also so exposing. You want to be the best you can be for her, but you also hope she actually notices or appreciates it.
