>>108355719got me engaged for once, to my parents relief, and then the result of me attempting to discuss it with anyone and getting a blank stone wall response - ammounted to was a very early lesson in myself and my relation in the world, one that I still key very strongly to this cartoon without really thinking about it.
- I was very different from the other kids, adults and even the rest of my family, no-one else had the same pattern of motivation as myself regardless of whether they knew about the specific topic or not. My grandmother only bought the damn videos out of a tenuous connection to my other grandpa, and she went straight back to the reliable grandchild-winning-over staples of chocolate and dumb gadgets the christmas after.
- Nevertheless, I was satisfied because I had my learning, and clearly there were people out there who had this incredible knowledge and furnished this extraordinary learning in so accessible and ready a form.
It would be a long time, basically not until I was a teenager with a decent internet connection, that I would get the same experience of learning about something profound again. But I would find satisfaction in another form: video games. See, while video games were a moderately amusing distraction at first, Ocarina of Time did totally suck me into its world, and my brother as well (a first! a real connection between us), and we soon discovered that many other video games had this power. The other kids at school didn't really get it, but at least we bros had each other. And we very quickly found GameFAQs back in the early 00s - ah, weird nostalgia. I remember thinking I was a total edgelord for making an underage account there at age 12. So I found that at least some decent interests were shared, chiefly by people thousands of miles away in America, and some human kinship was found in my life.
All of this is a long and rambling personal blogpost, and I thank any of you that have taken the time to peruse it thus far. It
