>>103285575She was yearning for affection that Ozai could not provide, no matter how hard she tried to embody his visage of a "perfect daughter." Her very nature was ruined by her upbringing she has no idea how to have meaningful healthy interactions with other people. I think she knew deep down her only way to get that unconditional parental love was through her mother, but she resigned herself as a monster and someone incapable of being loved.