>>101825352Don't you think I've tried? Every time, every time things seem to be going well they just slowly stop talking to me, people I thought were my friends just tell me they're not interested in hanging out, day after day I feel like such an unwanted third wheel in their conversations and eventually I stop talking, nobody messages anymore, not the people who I talked with about real shit, not the people I helped out with a favor, not the people I played vidya with, nobody notices and I'm gone, and it's off to another group for it to happen again. I put so much in, and for what? Why would anyone care about another name online? Fuck, I don't even have real life circles, I miss my mom so much, she was the last person I talked to semi regularly and I lied through my teeth telling her I was fine. I miss going to school, at least that forced people to be around eachother. I've got a fucking busted kneecap that won't even let me join the army for companionship. I don't have any options and I think I'm just going to kill myself. The money doesn't make a difference, and nobody I would have worried about disappointing is around anymore. There's no reason to go on. I feel like such a fucking weak loser who couldn't hack it. I tried, I really did, but I couldnt. Maybe I wasn't meant to live in the first place.
