>>100301839I can answer, since anonymous, also, I'm 30, so well-past the age of this coming up.
1) I used to kill animals. I'm a Slavshit, and we had a dacha, very close to the forest. So, not only would I go hunting, I would also kill and torture other animals. I drowned a cat once, shot a bunch of dogs, and I don't know how many rabbits, mice, and amphibians I killed and/or ate (since I'm a voraphile, and have been one since as long as I remember).
2 - Next we moved to the USA, when I was like 8. So, I lost all my school friends from Russia and couldn't make any new ones here at first, because of the language barrier. So I got bullied, and thanks to the retarded policies, I got punished for it. In JHS, I hit my growth spurt, learned to speak English, and got my first friends - and we were merciless bullies. I would push kids down stairs, lock them in classrooms, rob them, and so on. I was in an out of the Dean's office, I even got suspended for a week.
3 - HS was the turning point. I was arrested twice, for fights. When the school caught fire, they blamed me first and took me in for questioning (I didn't do it). I was also a typical /pol/tard before /pol/ and 4chan were even a thing (2003-ish), worried about the white race, degeneracy, and so on.
Then I had sex, got a girlfriend, got friends... and it helped, a lot. I definitely calmed down, but the sexual fantasies came out. My sexual relationship with my ex was built on physical abuse, I raped her frequently, I would get her blackout drunk, and fuck her until she would be sore for the next couple days. When I knocked her up, I essentially force-fed her vodka every day until she miscarried.
That was when we broke up. I was despondent for 5 years, taking solace in alcohol and violence. I had connections to people so I worked as a bouncer in a Russian-owned nightclub in NYC, where I used it to vent my aggression out on people (I was a big guy). I got kicked out of college for drinking and (cont)
