I have an average mind and it feels like so much of the world is locked off from me: Information to parse from sources beyond my access, conversations beyond banal remarks about the weather and what's on TV, opinions to form, there's gotta be something beyond the average life's silent mediocrity. I feel like an ant. How do I go beyond this? How can anyone abide by the average modern life? I feel disconnected from the real world, I don't want to meditate on the color of the sky and the asphalt I walk on until I die.