>>6016821Thank you pal, I will :)
>>6017526Congrats on taking that first step anon!
I think you'll get the best results when you practise a lot of self-reflection, in and outside of therapy.
Try to really understand what makes you do the things you do, because people don't just do things for no reason.
There's always an underlying cause for your symptoms, whether mental or physical (if you have any physical problems, it's important that you see someone about that too, because mental problems can arise from that as well) and if it's something that can't be cured, it can usually still at least be treated and made more bearable.
Internalise the concept of inherent worth and be proud of yourself for staying alive throughout difficult times.
If you can, build stronger connections with people, strengthen your safety net, adjust your environment to your needs where possible and get away from people who hurt you, no matter how much they try to manipulate you into staying.
Remember to take responsibility for your actions without focusing on who is or isn't to blame and be kind and gentle to yourself. If anyone offers to help, try to accept it, you deserve good things.
It may also help to research tools and coping strategies for when things get really bad; back when I was at extreme levels of stress, I'd sometimes feel that I needed to destroy things or hurt myself, and I felt very helpless about it, so I tried to plan safer outlets beforehand.
Personally, I found it satisfying to burn something safely in the sink, others might smell on something really nasty to snap themselves out of it or eat extremely spicy foods; different stuff works for different people during different moods.
Not every therapist will go through this stuff, they may specialise in different areas, but you can still make use of online resources like mental health emergency toolkits that may help along the journey as well and share it with your therapist.