If we are talking about fate them I'm not going to make it, I suppose is something similar to what you have, the feeling, the idea that no matter what, no matter how good I get, what I do I will never succeeded, at least no the "me" me, but something else, something I have to kill inside me and become this abhorrent caricature of what I'm just so I can active my dream, another regret and something I pretend I don't know or don't realize it because even remembering or thinking if far to painful to bare, another one to the pile.
Na matter, I just have to make "destiny" bent over, break and kill him like he wants to do with myself, that's the game plan at least, not as much as a game plan as my only choice, but is not a problem, I'm not complaining, you gotta do what you gotta do.
