I rewatched one of my favorite shows, then went to my art folder and looked back at some of my first drawings ever, about this show.

The soul, it's there. Even if it's drawn like shit, even it it's pre-/beg/, I can still feel the emotion I wanted to convey a long time ago, because I was the only one that did draw that fanart.

I look back at my art now, and it's soulless. It's like I lost my soul. It's not like I can bring it back either, I can't draw the things I used to draw anymore, or I'd get instantly doxxed. But I really want to draw it, and yet I've got nobody to show it to, because I'd get exposed.

I'm lost. Should I pursue soul without the world knowing or let it go?