I'm afraid of failing as an artist. Sometimes I put out amazing pieces and other times I put out literal dogshit. There's no consistency and I've been grinding fundies for a while. Is it true the right side of your brain just turns off for some days? I have noticed that since drawing about a year ago, I see the world and think differently. Is there any other way (other than practicing) to see the world from an artist's perspective? like supplements or meditation? My goal is to create hot looking anime girls, because it is my calling. I was never meant to have a wife, just draw coom material and I want it to be the best it could possibly be, that is my life's mission.

Some turn out fantastic and get shared around on reddit and twitter, others just look like I made a Frankenstein, mama mia! (I also enjoy making fat chicks with blue hair seethe when they comment, "Unrealistic standards! >:("