How does one have fun?

Drawing is an interest which has plagued me for years. I have been through the stages of hoarding the mega, spamming boxes, only doing studies, etc, and am at a point where I just want to feel like I enjoy drawing again. Like when i was a kid making shitty paper pokemon cards. Is it possible to feel joy again, or am i condemned to being infatuated with a hobby that doesn't love me back