I come here to get something off my chest /ic/. I've spent the last few years thinking I need to be an artist, I feel like mostly because I have a deep fascination and appreciation for certain aesthetics. However, I don't actually enjoy drawing, no matter how badly I want to immerse myself in this, no matter how badly I want to, I never have fun. It always feels like a chore. I've spent years running from this fact, procrastinating, thinking that I would eventually have an insane burst of inspiration and it would click. But it never did.

So I've come to the conclusion that some people are just artists and some are not. I think you're just born with it. I should have known since I rarely drew as a kid, while my brother and friends did it all the time, made their own comics, etc. Unless I'm mistaken and there is some secret to having fun with this, then otherwise I just don't like the process. I like when I stumble into an okay sketch but that rarely happens. My brain is simply not wired for art. My mind's eye sucks, it's like if I try to focus on an image in my mind it just fades away. I feel cursed by god.

Anyway rant over. I give up. I'm honestly ready to die at this point.