I can relate way too hard with too many of these posts. I've been stuck in paralysing fear over making "the wrong thing", being too negative about any idea and not finishing anything except for coom commissions, and I've slowed down a lot doing those because of the first problem of not knowing what to draw for myself, and for a portfolio.
I've had a year like this and I feel like an absolute waste of space given in that time I could've applied to multiple jobs.
Like another anon mentioned, I think using our devices and the internet too much has ruined our attention and motivation, we only do what's easiest and quickest and rationalise that's better than putting in the work to something meaningful.
I suppose deciding on what to draw and actulally finishing it is a skill like any other and we have to grind out our studies.
There's some many ideas out there for how to start, and I think we all know them
>redraw another illustration
>use a random prompt generator
>look for requests/job postings
if we just choose one of them, set a predetermined time limit like half an hour, or ten hours, whatever you think you can do (in one session or over a couple of days), a deadline and a consequence.
That last one is awkward but this has worked for me before: I posted in the morning that I'd have a new picture before midnight up, and it worked. Didn't matter how many people might have seen it, it worked to light the proverbial fire under my ass.
For what it's worth, I think I know exactly what you and other anons here are going through. I miss being young and naive and just drawing whatever I felt like, no pressure at all to make something popular or profitable, just drawing for the sake of it. Now every day I carry this suffocating pressure to make something but never being able to start or stick to it for long before giving up.
>tl;dr we're ngmi if we keep rationalising laziness with fear
