>>5796200this is not a retarded belief. this is a fact that I have thought about yesterday myself, and i finally realized what I need to draw. anger, spite, and envy. no, I cannot "enjoy" drawing. not the early stages, and not in my late 20's.
no one who starts over their 20's can enjoy the early process of drawing, not even those who start in their late teen years. I am not a kid. as a kid you don't care about your piss ugly stick figures and characters that suffer from clubfoot, leprosy and poliomelytis. as an adult, you can't stop but think "what the fuck did I just do? I just drew like a preschooler". who the fuck enjoys that? NO ONE. so what I do now is focus as much as I can, grit my teeth and move on with the realization that I won't be having fun til I can say "yes, I can somewhat accurately put this thing I had in my mind on paper"
