FIX ME. I feel the need to create art like a woman in her 30s feels the need to have children.
I need to get rid of this NEED/CRAVING. Tell me how to do it.

Because I sure as hell am not wasting 40 years of my life to git gud at art only to burn all my books, art galleries, everything because I have an epiphany that I'm shit and wasted half my life on crap I wasn't talented at.

You know what I did to the first good looking Lego house after being praised by my parents that it looked good at the age of 4? I destroyed it and I stuck to making ugly gay interiors of houses and spaceships like a tasteless faggot.
I am too unstable for art.