I hate myself for being lazy and not being good, I feel inferior. I lack passion, and motivation, these past few days ive been doing like 30 min practice, its not enough, and I worry that maybe this is not what Im good for, but what if I want to?
Let me share all of it, I'm just starting to draw, i can't draw for shit, I'm 18 years old and I feel like I've wasted my life. I'm having trouble with drawing from the shoulder and the superimposed lines, I feel like a huge failure, when I think of the future I jist dont see myself making it right now, I dont see myself being incredibly good at drawing, i want to excel. But i have no talent, I have no talent, I wasnt born into a creative family, born into an emviroment with no art scene and it wouldnt matter because i have no natural talent.
I admire yuasa, I admire kjg, and i also wanted to be a writer, but still im not korean or japanese, I cant make it into animation or movies, I feel like I lack that spark of creativity, sire i have ideas but like me they might not be anything special. Life is shit.