>>82344091well thanks.
I just want a cozy job to support myself while i try to break into film. I also want to start believing in myself
also, Ive looked at the sticky, im just to embarrassed to go to the shitty gym in my town because I know everyone will stare at me, judging my ugly wide faced block headed ass for existing.
I just think that everyone thinks lowly of me. I think that if they knew what a r9k fag was they would think that described me to a T.
I dont piss in jugs or screech like a frog, but I just dont want to hang out with peope in my town because there is literally nothing to do but hike, hunt and drink yourself into blackout.
and nobody is interested in the things i am. I want to talk about history, nobody gets what im saying. I want to talk about movies, the conversation doesnt go beyond "it was fun!"(because everyone I know has simplistic taste in entertainment. not trying to be a cunt, but the fact my mom and her boyfriend found the ridiculous six fun to watch grates me)
so im sitting here with boardgames noone wants to play, movies noone wants me to share with them, and nothing to do other than to go down the street to my brother's townhouse and get drunk with him. and his idea of a good night is to do so many shots of alcohol he cant remember anything the next day while dancing to whatever is popular on the radio while his nasty little native buddies giggle
im just so fucking alone.
