Again, only if you keep on thinking like that.Look I can't possibly know all your problems and this isn't /soc/. But I'll still butt in and throw in my own two cents considering you are more or less asking for help. So just, no toxic replies, okay?
Say and explain it away all you want, but unless you try, you'll never get rid of your anxieties or your hatred.
Hell I was about as full to the brim with anxiety as possible about four years ago. I realized my problem, took charge of myself and now I'm a flirt. It took about 2.5 years until I finally broke down my own ice.
I start conversations because I got sick and tired of no one else doing it and I flirt because I think it's fun.
Lately the only thing stopping me from getting a long term girlfriend was my own self loathing and the need to be someone better. This resulted in me friendzoning several girls. Part of the reason why I love Starco so much. Especially now with how S2 ended.
And I've been working on getting over that mental problem as well. I know I can do it, I know I can change. I've done it before.
From my experience, the only limit a person has is the one he sets himself up for.
The more negative thoughts you have, the harder you'll be making it for yourself.
Just get fed up with your own excuses or wait till you do naturally. It's only then that you can start to change. When YOU want to.