Everyday when I wake up , I start crying. I cry from despair , everyday I wake up and fall into unbearable pain , no. I can't just live WITHOUT Kuz. He was my everything. He was my meaning to live. When I first went on an Kolyma website , I-I couldn't help but fall in love with the graphic design , the layout and most importantly Kuz's beautiful face.I just can't fucking live without Kuz , I am seriously considering suicide . I just can't live without him , I've always imagined Kuz holding me ,kissing me on the cheeks telling me that everything will be alright. I just can NOT live without him. Please , someone reassure me that Kuz is alive. I've made so much fanfiction of him x me (No I will NOT unprivate it) I just can't anymore