>>13319778>will absolutely be left the fuck behind.My best friend from college just accepted a PhD position (genuinely happy for him, dude has been very supportive of me and keeps in touch even though I haven't seen him in person in a few years). I've been trying to reset since it all happened. I know this is a retarded thing to dwell on and I'm over it now but here's my gay sob story:
The straw that broke the camels back was the girl I met freshman year breaking up with me the summer before senior year. My parents are decently well off but I don't really get along with my dad and my gf encouraged me to put some distance between me and him (She was actually right about that. I saw a shrink later on that said my dad, a psychiatrist himself, most likely has a bad case of NPD. He's not the worst guy in the world but when he has an episode its crazy. One time I joined a fantasy football league with my roommates and he destroyed my moms kitchen. She called me and said I had 'broken his heart' and told me that I would be able to call and apologize when he was ready to speak to me again in one week. He says he has no memory of this at all but my mom does and we have different plates and glasses now and you can see the scratches on the woodwork still.) Anyways, she thought it would be best for me to get my own job and stop taking money from them so I would be able to cut contact if my dad was acting crazy. I got this really shitty night shift job at fedex and my gf went to europe for her final credit to graduate. She broke up with me the day before she got back. She was really all I had outside of my family (who I wasn't talking to at the time) and a few friends. It really hurt and I felt really alone but I had made just enough money to pay for the rest of school and rent for a few months so I decided to just suck it up. I was set to graduate early, in the Fall.
1/2 (Sorry for the blog post)
