>>13273497Humans very much need contact. Shit, you posting here is proof for it. Even without the chemical shit, you simply need a frame of social reference so you dont go bananas.
That being said, I am the same as you (concerning the symptoms atleast). Being alone is not provoking intense suffering directly related to it that I see in other people. But I am also under no illusion that I am completely sane. Its more that my frame of reference is skewed.
From my childhood on I have been showered in the negative connotations of relationships and rarely got the opportunity to partake in the positive ones. My experience tells me to avoid them, because I basically have been conditioned towards seeing it as a severe risk. And it seems like it is happening on such a deep level, that I no longer can actively feel the connection between depression and loneliness. I am sure that it is related to it though, even if it is just on a logical level.
Even when I am not depressed, I am sure that I would feel better if I overcame this burden, which does not feel like a burden.
TL;DR: Chances are good that you are a shizo just like me. Look back on your life and see if you find something that might have triggered this. Or you are a born functional psychopath, in which case, congrats. Go and become a banker or some shit.
