I am inferior to whites. Not because of my skin color or facial features, but because the pool of high iq individuals in my racial group is very, very tiny. I was a fool to think I was part of that "very tiny" minority of high iq individuals within my race. When I was younger I refused to believe what whites said. I "felt" smarter than average after all. I wanted to be a writer, lawyer, or scientist as I liked all of those fields. I was an English major for 1 semester, when I changed my major to Mathematics. My parents really disliked the idea because they thought it wasn't "realistic". But my ego would not let me see it their way. They wanted me to be a civil engineer, like my father. I did not listen. I always dreamt of doing something great like in the books I read. Invent something, discover something. Long story short, as I am about to finish my degree, a lot has changed and I realize now I cannot cut it. In the first 2 years of my degree I felt like a god. Left and right people got weeded out and I didn't. I was able to keep up. Engineering major "friends" picked softer careers after being unable to keep up, Math major friends ended up taking year long "breaks" to reevaluate their lives. Not me. I felt so competent and capable. But then in my 3 and 4th year I started to notice something: the people remaining were like gods in comparison to me. Getting this degree has consumed all of my time and although through sheer hard work I haven't had many close calls, grade wise, but my grades have not being extraordinary. This has not being the experience of my classmates. Their understanding of the material is miles ahead of mine. 2 Weeks ago I decided to take an IQ test and I finally realized I was not as brilliant as I thought. I sit squarely at 122 iq. What sort of "science" or discovery can do with that amount of brain power? More importantly, what do I do with my life. How do I do something "great" with my life when I don't seem to posses what it takes mentally?