Please help me med fags of /sci/, or anyone who knows, I've been having episodes of psychosis since I was a child.
But usually it was about things I thought about and being lost in my mind thinking, like about death and life, and things.
I remember when I was about 10 I thought a lot about death and things dying, I developed a great fear about my mother dying. At a very young age my mother had me tested for autism, but I didn't have autism. Instead, they explained to her that highly intelligent people often tend to act "differently." Me personally since a young age I've always been greatly bored of everything, and often bided my time by thinking inside my head, which was really when it all started.
I'm 19 now, and ever since I had a concussion I lost access to my mind, I feel like it control me instead of me controlling it, and my episodes happen more often.
Recently I made a thread that many people determined to be "schizo"
Now I'm having memories that take place forward in time of things that didn't happen.
The last time this happened was a few months ago I had a memory that never happened before, they're usually fairly simple but feel very real despite my recollection seeing them as very blurry and tunnly. I thought that my mother said bye to me and left the house, just a very simple thing, but she was actually in a different state. But when the memory ended I said out loud
>goodbye