Potential PTSD from being abused as a child
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Any med fags? I need some help
I just talked to my psychologist over the phone, after some medical student on another board, said my dreams could be from PTSD as a child. Funny thing is, I was abused as a child I think. I told my parents when I was under 4 years old or so, that the baby sitter stuck her finger up my asshole. They took me to the doctor, but they found no tearing. No one did shit to help me. I think, a womans finger wont tear if they dont like finger fuck you. No way I think, I'd make up getting something shoved up my asshole as a kid, I didnt even know what anal porn was at 3 or 4. I have no memory of this, but thats what my parents told me, after a female demons voice told me, I was sodomized as a child. I asked my parents, they said i said i was but the dr didnt find evidence.
I have one memory of a baby sitter, breaking a shower door made of glass when i was refusing to do what she said, then i screamed and cried.
What medical treatments are there for this? People just call me schizo, but schizo meds make me worse.
I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia due to "hallucinating" a demon raping me. Also hear voices of a succubus who humiliates me and makes me feel like shit by talking down to me and commanding me all day. I have dreams of demons fucking me in the ass, or being a female and denying me sex then humiliating me.
Anti psychotics never worked. They don't remove anything, only made me fat, and gave me tardive dyskensia. Also tremors, and i blink a lot now and look like im on heroin sometimes.
Anti depressants never helped with my anhedonia/blank ness or flat affect. I feel dead inside, and have since puberty. SSRIs do dick but make my dick limp. I take welbutrin and vyvanse atm. I'm 31 now.
I used to cry as a child when ever id talk to an adult who wasnt my parent, or get strong urges to cry. I felt like crying after just talking to my psychologist, but i held it in.
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I just talked to my psychologist over the phone, after some medical student on another board, said my dreams could be from PTSD as a child. Funny thing is, I was abused as a child I think. I told my parents when I was under 4 years old or so, that the baby sitter stuck her finger up my asshole. They took me to the doctor, but they found no tearing. No one did shit to help me. I think, a womans finger wont tear if they dont like finger fuck you. No way I think, I'd make up getting something shoved up my asshole as a kid, I didnt even know what anal porn was at 3 or 4. I have no memory of this, but thats what my parents told me, after a female demons voice told me, I was sodomized as a child. I asked my parents, they said i said i was but the dr didnt find evidence.
I have one memory of a baby sitter, breaking a shower door made of glass when i was refusing to do what she said, then i screamed and cried.
What medical treatments are there for this? People just call me schizo, but schizo meds make me worse.
I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia due to "hallucinating" a demon raping me. Also hear voices of a succubus who humiliates me and makes me feel like shit by talking down to me and commanding me all day. I have dreams of demons fucking me in the ass, or being a female and denying me sex then humiliating me.
Anti psychotics never worked. They don't remove anything, only made me fat, and gave me tardive dyskensia. Also tremors, and i blink a lot now and look like im on heroin sometimes.
Anti depressants never helped with my anhedonia/blank ness or flat affect. I feel dead inside, and have since puberty. SSRIs do dick but make my dick limp. I take welbutrin and vyvanse atm. I'm 31 now.
I used to cry as a child when ever id talk to an adult who wasnt my parent, or get strong urges to cry. I felt like crying after just talking to my psychologist, but i held it in.
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