I may or may not be bi, i’m a guy (20) and I like girls but I often have rape fantasies with men, it wouldn’t be that big of a problem, but in those fantasies im actually a child, probably 10 years old. Not as a man. In-fact I don’t necessarily am attracted to men

So basically I imagine myself being raped as a 10 yo boy, I would never want this to happen to me, but wtf?

What’s this? I otherwise don’t find kids or males sexually attractive. What scientific explanation? What to do? Can’t find nothing online.