I was thinking of posting this to /adv/, but I feel like /sci/ might be more familiar with this issue or at least maybe I could get more empathetic responses. Has anyone felt anxious looking at planets and shit? For me, I always get this feeling when I'm zooming into a planet or zooming out from the universe, I get this feeling almost like I'm falling.
Jupiter in particular is the worst. I can barely even look at a normal photo like pic related without my palms getting a little sweaty and if I look for too long, I start to feel my heartbeat quickening, especially if I expand the image. Zooming into Jupiter or looking at it fin certain ways makes me feel like I'm about to collide with it, its,consuming me, its going to blow up the universe, or I'm in going to get lost on it (as though I'm actually going to be left on Jupiter, and yes I know its a gas giant and blah blah and you'd die anyway blah blah blah I'm just explaining the feeling. Somehow, I almost feel like managing to survive and live on Jupiter in whatever way with whatever people and resources however fanciful and however thorough is still a terrifying prospect). Certain gaseous formations in space, suns, even, and actually especially, those silly size comparison things where they say at the end "do you feel small now?" make me feel anxious and awful (no idea how people watch these and "feel small"). Even Earth can do this to me.
The whole universe looks like monsters to me? I can see what Lovecraft saw in it; to me it all looks like menacing, hostile gods in space and its a fear exclusive to space.
I can't even play Elite Dangerous, without VR even, and not have to look away when it zooms in on a sun.
But the thing is, I'm really interested in space. I don't know that I'll ever be able to do anything with this interest, but I still want to try and learn about the universe and space, follow news about it, and all these things. So how do I get over this?
Jupiter in particular is the worst. I can barely even look at a normal photo like pic related without my palms getting a little sweaty and if I look for too long, I start to feel my heartbeat quickening, especially if I expand the image. Zooming into Jupiter or looking at it fin certain ways makes me feel like I'm about to collide with it, its,consuming me, its going to blow up the universe, or I'm in going to get lost on it (as though I'm actually going to be left on Jupiter, and yes I know its a gas giant and blah blah and you'd die anyway blah blah blah I'm just explaining the feeling. Somehow, I almost feel like managing to survive and live on Jupiter in whatever way with whatever people and resources however fanciful and however thorough is still a terrifying prospect). Certain gaseous formations in space, suns, even, and actually especially, those silly size comparison things where they say at the end "do you feel small now?" make me feel anxious and awful (no idea how people watch these and "feel small"). Even Earth can do this to me.
The whole universe looks like monsters to me? I can see what Lovecraft saw in it; to me it all looks like menacing, hostile gods in space and its a fear exclusive to space.
I can't even play Elite Dangerous, without VR even, and not have to look away when it zooms in on a sun.
But the thing is, I'm really interested in space. I don't know that I'll ever be able to do anything with this interest, but I still want to try and learn about the universe and space, follow news about it, and all these things. So how do I get over this?
