>>13120053This topic is more complicated than I'm willing to verbalize, and it has to do with dissociative states, early childhood, and so on. Basically my mind is split into pieces internally. There is a very limited "core self" (which itself is a creation, not going into it that deeply) and it creates a "Self" to insert into reality and experience through. Like a proxy, a character. Whenever I say or do anything I have all known angles in mind simultaneously. My case, the countercase, all tangential cases and variants. These are all relative truths that form a "logical framework", and they're all weighted by probability. I have no internal response to superficial cognitive dissonance. When I need to say or do something, it all collapses down to a single output, based on that weighting system and the particular model and reality I'm speaking to. If I need to do something I don't like, engage in futility, and so on, I just split in two. One of them acts like whatever BS it needs to (the delusion) the other knows more of the truth (only the higher self, the creator of the core selves knows the full truth) and just watches. This stems from dealing with irrational people and double binds in early childhood, eg being parentified.
I can generate a fluid internal narrative if I want, but I suspect people who lack one are functioning more like how I just described, as their default state. They are not of a singular mind. Which has advantages, but also comes at a cost.
