I want to relearn maths and science rigorously after a long term chemotherapy cognitive impairement, the material that I could breeze thru in high school is now a dead end knowing that I was selected for an elitist maths major in my country, I feel so much depersonalized I cant relate to any of the thoughts, goals and cognitive profile that I had pre-treatment, I v been living the groundhog day everyday since 6 years, basically waking up playing vidya and sleep, is it possible to regain a strong locus of control after such decadence in life? for example pursuing a competitive stem field and be succesful at it.
I m 20 and NEET btw